A Witch's Path. . .

a path worth taking. . .



The thing is . . .

I’m afraid the only day you’ll care about me is when I’m not around to hear you say it. I’m just a part of the scenery, like an old shoe or a rug that you walk on every day but don’t even really see. You can ignore me as long as you want but you can never change memories I brought in your life.

I guess I’m just tired, I’m tired of being bitched at, of being laughed at, of being made fun of, feeling ugly, of being ignored, of feeling unloved, of no one caring, of pretending to be happy when all I want to do is cry. It’s hard to admit that someone DOESN’T love you back. So, you hold on to them until you have no choice but to admit it.

When being in a relationship hurts you, leave. Don’t stay and keep drowning because love isn’t suppose to be painful. The again, if you put someone above you don’t be surprised when they start acting like you’re beneath them. Sometimes, you have to accept the fact that some people will always stay in your heart, even if you are already gone in theirs. The worst part is, when two people in love breakup, they cant be friends, as they hurt each other. They cant be enemies, as once they loved each other. The only thing they can be is the most familiar strangers.

Any man that tries to downgrade you from a Queen to a Pawn, is looking for a Checkmate, not a Soulmate. Don’t get confused. I’m learning how to pick my battles and fighting with you isn’t one of them. It should be us against the world not us against each other. Every relationship is going to have bad times. It’s up to you to decide whether or not the person you’re with is worth working through those times. I should let you go. Not because I don’t LOVE you but because me loving you will never be enough.

What hurts more than losing you is knowing you’re not even fighting to keep me. I never wanted anything, other than to be your everything. Some people say it’s painful to forget someone you love. Some people say it’s painful to wait for someone you love. But I say the worst pain comes when you don’t know whether to wait or to forget. . .


Fifty Shades of Literary Porn?? I think not!

In my twenty-seven years (well technically15 years) of reading fiction and romance novels, never have I been so consumed by the story-line, characters and plot of a book. I think that the term that is commonly being used is “Greysessed” (Grey and Obsessed combined, for those of you who are not familiar). I’m most definitely a Greysessor! I’m so guilty I am secretly wishing Christian Grey reads my blog and stalks me just to put me over his knee. . . Sorry back to reality. . .

I hear a lot of people, angry and disgusted and even appalled by the very thought of literary pornography. Fifty Shades of Grey Trilogy goes beyond literary porn. It brings you so many different levels of emotion. It captivates your heart, it enslaves you emotions and warms your loins. The experiences that Christian Grey and Anastasia Steele take you through show you not only the pleasures of the flesh, but the ruthlessness of true and unconditional love. Love that goes beyond good and evil. Love that heals and sates you on every level. You not only see two people falling in love or lust, you see two people changing and compromising for the sake of love.

I like to think that sometimes people react negatively to something such as this work of art because they feel pangs of guilt for the emotions that they have tried to suppress for so long and now they are there in black and white for everyone to see. What a spectacle! What a calamity! They deepest and darkest have been brought to life in a way that they never thought possible. Now, in an effort to hide the truth they claim feelings of disgust and repugnance. What a calamity indeed. Others, my guess is, are unsure of how to react because this may be something new and invasive to them. The term ‘new’ or ‘different’ can bring out ugliness due to fear, fear that they may succumb to these abominable feelings. Then we have the men who, well, let’s face it, they are insecure. There is no other explanation to it.

To make a point, I have quite a few friends, male friends, who went out and bought their wives and girlfriends the trilogy. Why? Simply because it doesn’t scare them to think that their wife is reading a book about the fictional perfect man. But what most people don’t get is this: Christian Grey is far from perfect! One of my favorite lines in the book is as follows:

– “Why don’t you like to be touched?”
– “Because I’m fifty shades of fucked-up, Anastasia”

and he truly is. He has not only mommy issues but control issues along with 50 other shades of issues I can’t even begin to tell you about. He is a tortured and broken soul. Anastasia Steele is definitely the superhero in this novela. She, with her virginal self, saves him from his self loathing and shows him not only that he is worthy of being loved, but that he too can love. She teaches him that not everyone can be controlled, while he shows her that it’s beautiful to have the finer things in life.

People who actually stop and read the book realize that Christian Grey becomes the perfect man because Anastasia molds him and changes him in a way that makes him the perfect man. Yes no man will ever compare. So, women everywhere are hoping nwo to find that broken soul to fix and mold into Christian . . .

Men, stop hating on Christian Grey! Women stop trying to find him, he doesn’t exist! Be happy to have read and been part of a beautiful and unforgettable story that has most definitely changed the course of romance literature for eternity.

I really didn’t want to touch on this but I feel that it is necessary. There is one other group of people that are raging against the Fifty Shades of Grey Phenomenon: The deeply Religious. Please understand that I respect the fact that you feel a close connection to God and that you believe that reading such materials will taint or ruin your soul. But please, I beg of you, just as we respect your religion and religious opinions, respect the fact that we do not believe we are going to hell for engaging in some reading that at most spikes our imagination and makes us go home and be more eager to please our spouses. If that is a sin, well, then should God not be the judge and not some other human. We get it you won’t read it. Good for you. Leave us alone. Is it not us who will go to hell? Explain to me how that affects your life in any way. It doesn’t now does it?

That being said I just want to remind everyone that being a sexual person is nothing to be ashamed of. Be adults about it. Protect yourself. Do not go out looking for a Dom without having proper Sub training. Do not go out on dates with people that you do not know without telling someone the name of the person and exactly where you are going and what time you expect to be back. Ladies, don’t expect to find Christian Grey in every CEO you run in to.

Also, don’t forget to check out my Facebook page Ian for CG on the Fifty Shades Movie.

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