A Witch's Path. . .

a path worth taking. . .



The thing is . . .

I’m afraid the only day you’ll care about me is when I’m not around to hear you say it. I’m just a part of the scenery, like an old shoe or a rug that you walk on every day but don’t even really see. You can ignore me as long as you want but you can never change memories I brought in your life.

I guess I’m just tired, I’m tired of being bitched at, of being laughed at, of being made fun of, feeling ugly, of being ignored, of feeling unloved, of no one caring, of pretending to be happy when all I want to do is cry. It’s hard to admit that someone DOESN’T love you back. So, you hold on to them until you have no choice but to admit it.

When being in a relationship hurts you, leave. Don’t stay and keep drowning because love isn’t suppose to be painful. The again, if you put someone above you don’t be surprised when they start acting like you’re beneath them. Sometimes, you have to accept the fact that some people will always stay in your heart, even if you are already gone in theirs. The worst part is, when two people in love breakup, they cant be friends, as they hurt each other. They cant be enemies, as once they loved each other. The only thing they can be is the most familiar strangers.

Any man that tries to downgrade you from a Queen to a Pawn, is looking for a Checkmate, not a Soulmate. Don’t get confused. I’m learning how to pick my battles and fighting with you isn’t one of them. It should be us against the world not us against each other. Every relationship is going to have bad times. It’s up to you to decide whether or not the person you’re with is worth working through those times. I should let you go. Not because I don’t LOVE you but because me loving you will never be enough.

What hurts more than losing you is knowing you’re not even fighting to keep me. I never wanted anything, other than to be your everything. Some people say it’s painful to forget someone you love. Some people say it’s painful to wait for someone you love. But I say the worst pain comes when you don’t know whether to wait or to forget. . .



Sometimes I don’t know how people wake up in the morning and don’t just get right back into bed and curl up in a ball and cry. I wake up and the first thing I think about is “what can I do today to make the world a better place?”. The world as we know it is falling to pieces, going to shit, crumbling. Everyday on the news a shooting in a school, a bomb goes off somewhere, someone abuses or kills an innocent child or helpless animal. It just doesn’t stop. My heart literally Aches!! I cry, once a day, sometimes twice, Am I the only person who sees whats happening here? We are destroying ourselves. The worst part has to be that NO ONE FUCKING CARES!! Our governments and world leaders are too busy dominating whatever the hell it is that they dominate and at the end of the day, the world is still a piece of shit. Every once in a while I see that someone has actually done some good in the world and my belief and faith in Humanity is temporarily restored again. My Boyfriend doesn’t seem to understand why I watch and read fiction novels and supernatural shows. The truth is because I believe some of this stuff is out there and we are too busy fucking up the world to realize what beauty lies within it, so we classify it as fiction. The other reason is, well, the reality of what is going on in the world today is too much to bear sometimes. It literally takes my breath away to see the devastation. There are good things out there yes, but do they outweigh the bad?? Is the battle between good and evil finally taking a turn for the worst?? Some days it feels like it is. What wouldn’t I give to change that?? Is there a reset button somewhere out there and who has access to it?? Seriously?! Press the RED BUTTON!!

*Sigh* *SMH* If I sat down everyday and thought about all the bad things that go on in the world I would never get back up. I try, the universe knows, I try! I want to save the world, one child, one pitbull, one oilspill, one homophobic, one republican, one drop of rain at a time. . . Please don’t sit back and criticize those of us who want to leave a better world for future generations. Get UP! Go OUT! DO SOMETHING!!

Giving up?

Do you ever get bored? I don’t mean, “I have nothing to do bored”. . . I’m talking about, bored with your partner, bored with your hair, bored with your friends (or lack-thereof), bored with your job, bored with everything, nothing arouses your interest?

I love my job. I enjoy working with the people, I enjoy interacting with our clients. Is it bad that I don’t find it interesting anymore?

I sometimes wonder if there is something wrong with me, lately everything just seems so blah. It’s as if the young vibrant and excited me is gone for good and I’ve been replaced of a shadow of who I used to be. I used to love life. I used to live it to its full potential! What happened to me?

I try and think of things that will make me go YES!!! but nothing seems to get me going these days. I’m so anxious like I need to run and never look back. I wasn’t meant to be tied down.

I have no idea what this means or where this will lead me but I feel like I’m giving up.

BDSM Limits


(Inspired by Fifty Shades Trilogy)



Submissive Checklist

Experienced Willing Limit
Y/N Y/N/T HL 12345 Key
Age play N N X HL = Hard Limit
Bathroom use control N N X
Bestiality N N X Y = Yes
Beating (hard) N N X N = No
Brown showers (scat) N N X T = Try
Caning N N X 0 (zero) indicates you have utterly no desire to do that activity and don’t like doing it (in fact, may loath it) and would ordinarily object to doing it, but you would be willing to do it to please the Dominant if it they really wanted it. (sometimes called a “soft limit”).
Catheterization N N X
Cells/Closets (locked inside of) N N X 1 means you don’t want to do or like to do this activity, but wouldn’t object if it was asked of you.
Competitions (with other Subs) N N X
Cutting N N X 2 means you are willing to do this activity, but it has no special appeal for you.
Electricity N N X
Exhibitionism (friends) N N X 3 means you usually like doing this activity, at least on an irregular/ occasional basis.
Fisting (anal) N N X
Foot worship N N X 4 means you like doing this activity, and would like to experience it on a regular basis.
Forced nudity (around others) N N X
Given away to another Dom (perm) N N X 5 means the activity is a wild turn-on for you, and you would like it as often as possible
Golden showers N N X
Infantilism N N X
Injections N N X
Medical scenes N N X
Piercing (temporary, play-pierce) N N X
Piercing (temporary, play-pierce) N N X
Piercing (permanent) N N X
Serving as ashtray N N X
Serving as toilet N N X
Serving other doms (unsupervised) N N X
Shaving (head hair) N N X
Straight jackets N N X
Strapping (full body beating) N N X
Suspension (inverted) N N X
Swallowing urine N N X
Branding N N X
Bondage (multi-day) N N X
Enemas Y N X
Breast/chest bondage N N 0
Boot worship N N 0
Breast whipping (hard) N N 0
Chastity belts N N 0
Exhibitionism (strangers) N N 0
Fantasy gang-rape N N 0
Fisting (vaginal) N N 0
Forced Crossdressing N N 0
Forced servitude N N 0
Gags (cloth) N N 0
Gags (tape) N N 0
Given away to another Dom (temp) N N 0
High heel worship N N 0
Hot waxing N N 0
Initiation rites N N 0
Nipple weights N N 0
Outdoor scenes N N 0
Saran wrapping N N 0
Serving as furniture N N 0
Serving other doms (supervised) N N 0
Sexual deprivation (long term) N N 0
Suspension (upright) N N 0
Suspension (horizontal) N N 0
Tickling N N 0
Verbal humiliation N N 0
Video (recordings of you) N N 0
Bondage (heavy) N N 1
Full head hoods N N 1
Gags (rubber) N N 1
Hairbrush spankings N N 1
Hot oils (on genitals) N N 1
Outdoor sex N N 1
Prison scenes N N 1
Slutty clothing (public) N N 1
Spandex clothing N N 1
Voyeurism (your Dom w/others) N N 1
Anal plugs (large) N Y 2
Anal plug (public, under clothes) N Y 2
Arm & leg sleeves (armbinders) N Y 2
Bondage (public, under clothing) N Y 2
Chauffeuring N Y 2
Clothespins N Y 2
Exercise (forced/required) N Y 2
Eye contact restrictions N Y 2
Harems (serving w/other subs) N Y 2
Harnessing (rope) N Y 2
Leather clothing N Y 2
Manicures (giving) N Y 2
Phone sex (serving Dom’s friends) N Y 2
Sensory deprivation N Y 2
Serving as a maid N Y 2
Serving as waitress/waiter N Y 2
Sleep deprivation N Y 2
Standing in corner N Y 2
Supplying new partners for Dom N Y 2
Uniforms N Y 2
Whipping N Y 2
Wooden paddles N Y 2
Cages (locked inside of) N Y 3
Double penetration N Y 3
Fantasy rape N Y 3
Forced homosexuality N Y 3
Harnessing (leather) N Y 3
Having food chosen for you N Y 3
Having clothing chosen for you N Y 3
Kneeling N Y 3
Modeling for erotic photos N Y 3
Nipple clamps N Y 3
Oral/anal play (rimming) N Y 3
Pussy/cock whipping N Y 3
Rope body harness N Y 3
Serving as art N Y 3
Speech restrictions (when, what) N Y 3
Swapping (with one other couple) N Y 3
Triple penetration N Y 3
Including others N Y 3
Serving orally (sexual) N Y 4
Shaving (body hair) N Y 4
Swinging (multiple couples) N Y 4
Over-the-knee spanking N Y 5
Orgasm denial N Y 5
Orgasm control N Y 5
Pussy worship N Y 5
Sexual deprivation (short term) N Y 5
Slutty clothing (private) N Y 5
Spreader bars N Y 5
Vaginal dildo N Y 5
Asphyxiation Y N 0
Being Bitten (hard) Y N 0
Breath control Y N 1
Collars (worn in public) Y N 0
Auctioned for charity Y Y 2
Bondage (light) Y Y 2
Cuffs (metal) Y Y 2
Housework (doing) Y Y 2
Phone sex (serving Dom) Y Y 2
Swallowing semen Y Y 2
Anal plugs (small) Y Y 3
Beating (soft) Y Y 3
Breast whipping (Soft) Y Y 3
Cock worship Y Y 3
Corsets (wearing) Y Y 3
Leather restraints Y Y 3
Voyeurism (watching others) Y Y 3
Anal sex Y Y 4
Blindfolds Y Y 4
Collars (worn in private) Y Y 4
Cuffs (leather) Y Y 4
Face slapping Y Y 4
Ice cubes Y Y 4
Strap-on-dildos (sucking on) Y Y 4
Strap-on-dildos (penetrated by) Y Y 4
Being serviced (sexual) Y Y 5
Being bitten (soft) Y Y 5
Following orders Y Y 5
Forced masturbation Y Y 5
Forced nudity (private) Y Y 5
Genital sex Y Y 5
Hair pulling Y Y 5
Hand jobs (giving) Y Y 5
Hand jobs (receiving) Y Y 5
Head (giving fellatio) Y Y 5
Head (receiving fellatio) Y Y 5
Massage (giving) Y Y 5
Massage (receiving) Y Y 5
Spanking Y Y 5
Strap-on-dildos (wearing) Y Y 5
Teasing Y Y 5
Vibrator on genitals Y Y 5
Video (watching others) Y Y 5


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